Febuary means the new Fiscal year for my store which means a new set of hours...which means almost NO hours to give out at all....which translates to unless I find something else to do, I'm looking forward to paychecks that will barely cover my half of the cell phone bill, let alone the strage bill as well. And that's a really sad fact considering that I also have to factor in my daily expenses like gas, food, toiletries and now, school application expenses. I lived with it last year because I wanted to be available for my job to learn more about what I needed to do. The sucky thing about that was 1) I didnt really learn too much of anything...I mean it's only now that I'm starting to recieve DC and getting more opening shifts here & there. and 2) well, there really was'nt anyone hiring throughout the year. For retail jobs the biggest hiring times are summer and holiday seasons and that's alot of waiting for something very temporary.

I've been juggling the idea of getting a 2nd job (if this year is anything like last year than it'll be just fine LMAO), make an attempt to be a bit more aggresive in selling my art (geting our website done, trying to use Mypace for more than just another journal) you know just doing my best to get/our art out there. But if I do that, that may mean that I wont be working a 2nd job. I told Dee Jay about it and his 1st question was are you sure you want another work another job? At 1st it made me wonder if he thought I was able to work 2 jobs...which isnt like i havent done it before. But I spoke to him about it and he said that he just doesnt want  me to work like him and have to mess with schedules and work long days like he does. He also told me that since he's moving to another store, getting a promotion with a 2 dollar min. raise and a steady full time schedule weekly, he said that if I didnt want to work I didnt have to. That sounds so weird. I actually fel bad that Im contemplating it. I mean, whats the sense of getting a raise and making more money if you cant see any of it? He'd be picking up my slack and not saving anything because of it. I'm in good health and I know I can work...I mean a part of me would be ecstatic to do that because that would mean more time to draw and get stuff reasy for conventions and try and do commissions and stuff. But that also means me not saving anything because I dont make enough money to save and asking Dee Jay for money...I'd feel like a little kid waiting for an allowance. Is it wrong to see that as him having control in a way? I mean I know he would'nt just hang it over my head or anything (at least I hope not, LOL) but still...He'd be working hard for the both of us and we're not even married or anything...

Does anyone have this situation happen to them? Im so torn I just dont know what to do at all!

Dammit...I gotta get dressed and go to work. My last full work day...oh the joy